Another month has come and gone and I haven’t written anything new. I’s not that I don’t care, it’s just that not much is happening on a day by day level.
But, on a month by month level, this has been a productive one! I committed myself to making some projects during the Olympics. So far, I have finished one scarf:
dyed three skeins of yarn:
and made 10 African flowers towards my elephant:
The elephant pattern can be found on Ravelry at this link:
Nellie, the African Flower Elephant by Heidi Bears
Those of you who know me well know that I am crazy for elephants, so this project is perfect for me. It uses lots of little bits of yarn that I have saved up and will make me smile every time I see it!
Currently, I’m working on a crocheted chemo cap. I have been fortunate enough to NOT lose my hair, but the nurses in the chemo department where I go for treatment tell me they can always use chemo caps. I ran out of the yarn I was using, so I frogged back a few rows and added in a second yarn, alternating rows for the brim of the hat. This is another good way to use up leftover yarn!
I’ve put myself on a stash diet… no more fabric or yarn for me until I catch up on some of the many projects I have planned already. So, I have five shirts to make, three quilts to finish, and a LOT of yarn to use up before I go shopping again! Glad I stocked up when I had a more steady income. Disability insurance is a real life saver, but it’s not as predictable as a salary.
I will soon be out of short-term disability and into long-term disability. I never thought I would be unable to work for so long… it’s hard to believe it’s been more than a year. But, since I didn’t really get diagnosed until November, it stands to reason that I would need some extra time to get better.
And I AM getting better! The last CT scan showed that my lymph nodes are shrinking back to normal and there are no signs that the cancer has spread! The treatments are working! It is so much easier to take the exhaustion and weakness that the treatments cause when I know IT IS WORKING!
This month also brought my birthday and Valentine’s Day. I am reminded once again how fortunate I am to have my husband in my life. He makes me laugh, takes care of me when I feel lousy, and encourages me to keep fighting. He accepts me as I am — mood swings, illness, inability to drive or concentrate — and still makes me feel like I am a gift to him, not a burden. Our life together is all I ever hoped for in a relationship. It only took me 55 years and three marriages to find him!
Parents, friends, siblings, spouses, children… anyone who truly accepts you as you are is to be treasured and appreciated! I hope you all are able to accept yourselves and have others accept you, too. Love yourself and let others love you, too!
Now let’s go create something.